The Date

May 20, 2013

Had a date last night with a former Marine, for all intents and purposes we will call him The Marine, and it was really, really, nice.

The Marine and I went to the Zoo and wandered around, talked, I bought him a beer, he laughed at me divulging too much information about my geeky tendencies to do touristy stuff, then we went to have margaritas and Mexican food. (As we well know – two of my favorite things on the planet). Went back to his place and watched Silver Linings Playbook, good movie, had a pretty deep and interesting meaning.

It was truly nice spending time with a man who seems happy and isn’t deeply broken, agitated, and spiteful. It was nice to feel “free” for a change. As if I could be myself. That is a rare occurrence for me. The Marine is intelligent and sweet. Perhaps, just perhaps, I will see The Marine again. ;)

I’ve written a hundred letters that I will never send…

May 18, 2013

I have opened texts and emails to you – written that I loved you, among a million other small things,   then closed it because I know you are never going to love me the way I deserve to be loved… and you will never give me the future I falsely saw with you.

I will sleep in my own bed again… at some point — I’ve never had my heartbroken before – and I must say it is a pain worse than…well, anything I have ever felt before.


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